I didn't look to see what the other words in the word search were, but I found the three most relevant words that I would say desire what I want for my future: love, success, and happiness! It put a smile on my face and made me think of my life. I definitely have love and most days, I'm pretty happy. Typically, I think of myself as pretty successful as well, but there are days like today that I'm wishing for something more. I often have to remind myself that just because I don't have a Kardashian name or a kid that starts with a K and a ginormous house I don't need, I am in charge of 20-30 something kids' lives. I'd say if I can do that fairly well, I'm successful. Success isn't measured in what you have, it's measured in accomplishing your goals.
I often don't set goals because I don't reach them. For me, success isn't a goal however, it is a lifestyle. Success isn't always something we are born with, unless you're Rob Kardashian(yes, another reference.) of course I am kidding, he is successful, like when he...... Or he did....... I will remember later. I was not born successful, I was born human. I've been told, thanks to my "success," that I am snooty. This offends me, because I have a job and live in a home with my also "successful" husband, doesn't make me snooty, it makes me successful, responsible and underestimated. I believe, however we are certainly influenced by other "successful" people and even unsuccessful people. We are driven by the tools that people give us and by the power God gives us within ourselves.
College was something I just knew would only be for finally meeting the man of my dreams, getting married and then having children..... Boy was I wrong. The only boy I found had a scruffy beard who I occasionally would kiss. I found success in college, which after my first semester, graduating was definitely a success. College led me to many things and whole I did not become a doctor and I can appreciate their success!
Today marks one week that my father has had his defibrillator. All week I have marveled over the science and intellect of these doctors. While I did have to teach one doctor how to put the railings down on a hospital bed, they are very smart humans! How do scientists and doctors create such amazing products! I thank God for that! While visiting the doctor Friday to get clarity on an issue my father had had, the gentlemen reading his results recorded stated "ok, I'm going to increase your heart rate." WHAT?!?! My brother and I just looked at each other thinking, how cool that was. He has control over the most important part of the body. He has my fathers life in his hands.
We needed comfort and verification and we got it. The Doctors at St. Vincent Heart Center have been exceptional! I could never thank them enough for the amazing work they do, how do you even say thank you? Sometimes success is just measured by how much you love to make people happy! :)
Monday, July 8, 2013
Monday, July 1, 2013
Perfect Storm
As I reflect on the dayI can accurately say I have been filled with emotions. I wouldn't say scared was one of those although my anxiety may have stemmed from fear. Fear of the unknown, fear of the unexpected and fear of what's to come, but it is my responsibility to lean on God, not on my own understandings. I felt happy, excited, nervous, Blessed and thankful! My heart is happy, yet I feel so sad that I have to go back to work and leave my family. It's hard to leave when you feel so connected.
When dad went back we were headed to have breakfast and suddenly over the intercom there was a moment of prayer! Prayer for just those things I had been feeling. Lord, please guide these doctors. Lord, please protect my father. Lord, please give us strength to trust in you! Those were my prayers. I felt ok and seeing some familiar faces throughout the day was a Blessing! My dads siblings were present and my brother was there along with his family and my husband. We were also visited by two Godly men, Pastor Tim and Pastor Brian. Two men who care deeply for our family and for that, I am grateful. And my mother, which of whom gives me peace.
While waiting in the lobby I was reminded of the finale of Grey's Anatomy this season. While I missed most of the season I was able to watch the finale this week. The episode is focused on the fact that the power has gone out and the doctors have to work on what they know. Today, while my father was in the hands of doctors, the electricity went out. My mom and I looked at each other and at that moment our souls collides..... It was as if we had felt the same exact feeling and in the same exact way. You want to panic, but you know it will do no good. In some way, that episode gave me knowledge to recognize the abilities those doctors have, abilities I've never imagined! We often don't say how big of heroes our doctors are, oh, but they ARE!
While the world is full of those unfriendly feelings I had today, the world is full of those wonderful feelings as well. Live each day to the fullest they say, never take for granted what you have, cast all of your cares on Jesus, isn't that what we were taught in Sunday school? I believe those things however, so easily we forget. Today, I am Blessed and hopeful fort father's future and the future our family has together! I pray that we Bless God for Blessing us! Thank you to the unsung heroes that save lives everyday. Today you saved one of the most important! :) for that, I am grateful!
Thank you to those that shared in our experiences today and who have walked beside us either physically, mentally or spiritually! We pray that God would protect us and work for a positive recovery and potential healing, in Jesus name!
When dad went back we were headed to have breakfast and suddenly over the intercom there was a moment of prayer! Prayer for just those things I had been feeling. Lord, please guide these doctors. Lord, please protect my father. Lord, please give us strength to trust in you! Those were my prayers. I felt ok and seeing some familiar faces throughout the day was a Blessing! My dads siblings were present and my brother was there along with his family and my husband. We were also visited by two Godly men, Pastor Tim and Pastor Brian. Two men who care deeply for our family and for that, I am grateful. And my mother, which of whom gives me peace.
While waiting in the lobby I was reminded of the finale of Grey's Anatomy this season. While I missed most of the season I was able to watch the finale this week. The episode is focused on the fact that the power has gone out and the doctors have to work on what they know. Today, while my father was in the hands of doctors, the electricity went out. My mom and I looked at each other and at that moment our souls collides..... It was as if we had felt the same exact feeling and in the same exact way. You want to panic, but you know it will do no good. In some way, that episode gave me knowledge to recognize the abilities those doctors have, abilities I've never imagined! We often don't say how big of heroes our doctors are, oh, but they ARE!
While the world is full of those unfriendly feelings I had today, the world is full of those wonderful feelings as well. Live each day to the fullest they say, never take for granted what you have, cast all of your cares on Jesus, isn't that what we were taught in Sunday school? I believe those things however, so easily we forget. Today, I am Blessed and hopeful fort father's future and the future our family has together! I pray that we Bless God for Blessing us! Thank you to the unsung heroes that save lives everyday. Today you saved one of the most important! :) for that, I am grateful!
Thank you to those that shared in our experiences today and who have walked beside us either physically, mentally or spiritually! We pray that God would protect us and work for a positive recovery and potential healing, in Jesus name!
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